Sunday, 23 July 2017

Day 373

A lie in! I stayed in bed until 9am...well I got up for dogs at 5 but went back to my pit and they left me alone. I actually checked they were still alive a couple of times as they usually cry and howl for their breakfast. But thankfully not today.

I've been feeling so tired the past week. More than when I was getting up at 4.30 every morning during the winter. Maybe its the weather? Maybe its stress?

I met my parents, my step brother and his new girlfriend for lunch. We met at the pub halfway between us. Mine and Gavins fave place for special occasions. I've been there quite a few times now since he's been gone. I didn't really think of him today. Until writing this really. It's strange meeting new people that don't know me as part of Gav and Sar. I'm just Sarah to them. I guess that's good but it does make me feel a bit embarrassed to be single. Like people think I'm single because I'm ugly and fat. Which is probably the route cause if I'm honest but I know I shouldn't have such self esteem issues and assume people have a low opinion about of me.

I've done zero packing. Not one single thing. I took a couple of duvets to the tip en route to lunch. The bag they were in had a spider in it so obviously there was no way I could keep them.

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