After yesterdays moans about my weight I've had some really lovely supportive messages from my online friends. Nobisy has judged me or made negative comments about how much I weigh. I'm amazed.
I feel like I have the support there to be able to do it, I just need to...do it!
Maybe tomorrow, or the day after.
Last night I dreamt of Gavin again. Why is he bothering me after all this time? I wonder if there's a specific trigger or if my subconscious is just cruel. Today I saw on the news that a man on his 30s had died in an accident. It was near me, there was nothing to suggest it was Gavin, yet I instantly think of him. When will it stop?
Tomorrow I have to get up at 5am to go to check my horses before work as the weather is bad. It's all downhill from here until next April. Great!
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