Day 321

Shitbag of a day.

I went to my horses early this morning so I could get home and spend the day being lazy. I was nervous about driving the car after last night but had no choice.

I crept along all the way there. I managed to get up to 30 mph but had to change into first gear at one point to get up a slight hill. I spent a couple of hours bathing the horses. I got so wet I had to take my top off and got back in the car for the drive home just wearing my  sweatshirt and wet trousers.

I knew something was seriously up the moment I pulled onto the main road. The noise was getting loud, and I totally lost power. I went down to 10mph with my foot flat to the floor and my heart sinking even lower. I had a huge queue of traffic behind me, it was awful. I got about 2 miles max when I decided my nerves couldnt take anymore and there was an opportune bus stop for me to pull into. The exhaust was smoking and I was shitting myself. I had to get out to check the car wasn't on fire.

Thank god for breakdown cover.

After not so discretely changing back into my wet top on the side of the road, an hour later they arrived. The mechanic started the car and it started to smoke under the bonnet, so he put the car on the truck and took us all home. The poor dogs had to ride in the boot of the car while it was in the truck but they didn't seem to notice.

So now I'm carless. I have no spare money for repair or replacement. I'm having to look online to see if there's a cheaper house I can buy just so that I can afford to get my car repaired. I'm heartbroken and feeling like I did last summer. Alone, desperate and scared.

All because of a bloody car.

I have the day off work tomorrow so the surveyor can come to my house. My parents are going to loan me their second car short term but its a 3 litre 4wd and will cost me an absolute fortune to get to work in. I'm going to attempt to get my car to a local garage when my parents are here to escort me. I'm praying it's something minor that I can fix for now while I come up with a plan.

Finally selling my house. Finding a house I love. I knew it was all too good to be true.