So I'm in my car, broken down with a flat battery.
I was en route to view a house and already stressed as my ex has messaged while I'm out to ask if he can come round this afternoon to collect his TV after changing the time he was coming twice already.
I'm freezing cold. No battery = No heating.
I've text him to warn him that I might be late. He's text back asking where I am. Not sure it's relevant so I tell him I've called for recovery and will be back asap. Them he rings me. Where am I? He can come and help me. WTF. No I don't want your help I've called my breakdown people. Oh..it's just that he's an hour early and he's outside my house. My mistake, for a moment I thought he may actually have been worried about me. But no, he just wants to get home. He offers to come and help me. I can sit in his van with the heating on and get warm. What..and have a nice chat with him like we're friends?
So now I'm waiting, stressed, freezing cold and fucking crying.
How am I meant to see him for the first time in all these months when I feel so utterly pathetic.
The breakdown man has arrived. Please let me get home without any more drama.
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I pulled into my road and there he was. In his van chatting to my neighbour which really annoyed me. No doubt having a laugh like pals. I ignored him, my neighbour tried to talk to me, I grunted.
I was so stressed. Shivering from both the cold and nerves. I didn't know how I was going to feel or react but I didn't want to do it in front of the guy that lives next door. They both came in to take the massive TV out to his van.
I could tell he was anxious too. He looked like shit. It sounds stupid but I really expected him to have lost weight and be doing good and I really resented it. But he looked heavier than I remember. No doubt living off takeaways. I feel smug. Before I went out I put make up on which is a rarity so I must have looked miles better than he remembers me..always in filthy clothes from the horses, messy hair etc.
He asked me when I was going to tell him the house was for sale. Well duh. When it was sold.
I got choked up when I spoke about the dogs. He was upset about some stuff too. He asked to use the loo and spent 5 minutes puking which was weird and gross. I was cool, offered him a drink. I asked him if he was happy. No, he choked out. He actually got a bit cross with me when telling me he'd fucked up things for me, him, everybody. Self pity.
All in all it was very weird. Uncomfortable.
But I handled it. There were tears. Not out loud uncontrollable wailing, just quiet tears rolling out, minding their own business. They're still doing it now.
He's been gone 20 minutes and he's text me to ask if I'm ok. I've said yes but was weird seeing him.
He says sorry for everything he has done.
I haven't bothered to reply.
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