Day 330

Yawn. Another borefest. Nothing to see here..move along.

Day 329

Another boring uneventful day.

This evening I thought I'd try and tackle my nemesis... the loft!

I found some sensible footwear, tucked my phone into my bra (incase I'm scared and can't get back down) and figured out how to get the ladder down.  I took 2 steps up it....then proceeded to fold it back up and shut the hatch. There's not a hope in hell of me going into the loft. For one I'm not sure I'd get through the hatch. Secondly I would no way be able to get back down again. The ladders too flimsy and I'm a wimp.

Not sure what I'm going to do but it needs emptying. I'll just watch a bit of telly while I think about it.

Day 328

Not long to go until the big 365.

Not sure how I feel about it. I don't think I feel anything really but it has to be significant.

I would have preferred to be out of the house a year on but it seems he won't even have collected his belongings. I want to cal him a cunt and tell him to fuck off but I have to play nice so he signs the house sale contract. I can't wait to be rid of him.

Not long to go hopefully.

Day 327

I feel good today. Positive.

And really uplifted by concert on TV

#OneLoveManchester

Day 326

4.30am dog crying
6am dog still crying
7am finally get out of bed
3 wheelbarrows of horse poo collected from the fields
1 bad back
1 big blister
Supermarket shopping
More dog whining and crying
TV

What better way to spend a Saturday 😒

Day 325

Great day today, I'm buzzing.

I got a payrise. The payrise I was dreaming of and never thought I'd get. I can't believe it.  It's not huge money by many standards but for a small independent provincial company it's wonderful. I feel so relieved, and so valued.

I was gobsmacked and got a bit emotional. The managing director also welled up as he knew what it meant to me. Money will still be tight when I move but this will help me so much.

I'm celebrating by giving myself a night off from the horses and I've ordered the first chinese takeaway I've had since the bastard disappeared off the face of the earth.

Dare I say it...things are looking up.

I've survived the broken car disaster. My new little banger got me to work and back with no problems so hopefully it will survive a little while if I look after it. I'm buying a bigger house than I live in now. And it's all mine....well the banks, but mine in theory. I'm feeling optimistic. 

I have the horrendous house packing to deal with. I messaged Gavin yesterday to ask about him collecting his things. He asked if I had a moving date yet...as if that's relevant. Is he expecting to collect his shit on the day we complete on the sale? No doubt he wants to leave it here for as long as possible as the 10 months it been so far aren't long enough for him.

Wanker.

Day 324

A long day today.

Work
Horses
Dogs
New (old) car
Home at 9pm
Dinner at 9.30pm

Chat with boss tomorrow about my salary. Bit nervous as could be make or break.

Too tired.